Thursday, November 13, 2008

one day from November

much better day than yesterday :)

talked to Michael in the morning... we both managed to be pissed off yesterday :D and felt very good after talking it all out and knowing that we have each other and those are small annoying things from somewhere outside.

then i fixed some small things on the website i was working at... and was about to get up. well was convincing myself. and then Lilit (classmate) called and asked to meet at 1 instead of 12! which gave me another hour of sleep :D

so we met up and went to the "Victory" park. the day was very sunny and nice.. it felt more like late October rather than November. I took some photos that i really liked :D and in general got into higher spirits, took my 365 photo too.





we had some talk, great part of which was about Michael, our relationship, me leaving for the U.S. and things related.


Lilit


then when we were about to part ways and suddenly Lilit says "hey! that ms. Ann!" (ms. Ann was our English and in some time also Russian teacher. one of my first English teachers). i didn't recognize her at first especially since she dyed her hair. she was standing there talking to some other woman. so we were standing in doubt, and then...

ms. Ann (loudly): who are those 2 beauties?... Irina Dokhikyan?... and Lilit?..
ms. Ann: oh my girls, they were my pupils, hello! how are you doing? my goodness you grew so much! such beautiful ladies! (etc)

ms. Ann: where are you studying now?

me: haha we both have already graduated, worked and quit our jobs for different reasons :D

the other woman: lol Anna probably they are also married just you haven't seen them for long :D

ms. Ann: geeze yeah! it's been 10 years already since i last saw you right?

Lilit: err not 10 but 8 yes :)

ms. Ann: so are you married? :D

me: ... *all smiles*
Lilit: she is on her way to :D

so ms. Ann started investigating who it was, then i showed a photo, of course she liked Michael, asked some more questions, and was very happy for me and told some very nice things.

then the other woman left and we walked ms. Ann towards her place a bit to have a longer chat. she got married too actually and had kids but we kept calling her ms. Ann :D. i told her that "see? i very much needed what you taught me in school :D" meaning English

and she asked if i kept studying as well as i did and that i had always been a good pupil and a smart girl... she just doesn't know that i never did her homework and was doing exercises on spot hehe but yeah i omitted that :D

here she is :)


then i went home to talk to Michael for a short bit and left again. this time to have dinner with mom. we went to a japanese restaurant - Samurai. it was cool! i had been there once.. taught mom how to use the sticks. she said i was using them with such grace and in such a way as if i had lived in Japan and have always used sticks to have dinner :D:D what i liked a lot was "choya" vodka made of special plum (i guess). the taste was really very good.

Friday, November 7, 2008

accomplishment

today was a good day. by all means.

it was the first day i left house since sunday, and the flu is finally practically gone. i had to go pick up a paper from the ministry of foreign affairs, then get more papers.

i went to the ministry with mom, just to have some company in the line. after getting the paper, we walked to a bank to pay 131$ interview fee (i kept forgetting to do that). then i needed to go to what is called жэк (explanation for english readers: it's a place where you deal with comunal stuff. like if your tap is not working you go there and ask them to send smb. and it's who you pay the apartment fee. etc). i needed to get a paper that since i turned 16 and until now i'm living at my address (like i didn't live at some dorms, other places etc). i explained myself there. the lady stared at me and blanked. then she wanted to write it but the head was there and said "but how do you know that she has lived there? she could have lived anywhere!"

me: yeah. i know. so what do i do? from the ministry of foreign affairs i was sent here..
man: well.. get a paper from 3 neighbours who will sign that you have been living there. and bring their passports.

that was kind of a surprise for me. i got that paper in no time, took it and the passports to жэк again, and they gave me what i needed.

so i realized i could now go to the notary! and that i was holding all of the documents! i called mom again and we went to notary service together. they said it would be ready by 5! today! hooray! then me and mom went to Jazzve and had waffles. we left, i walked mom to work and started going back... and GOSH! I LEFT THE USA EMBASSY INVITATION PAPER ON THE TABLE AT JAZZVE!!! i nearly ran there and told the waiter "never! ever! leave such papers anywhere! if you are in my situation!" the guy laughed. i walked out with the paper and called myself all bad words in all languages i know!

went home. glanced at the desk whole surface of which was cluttered. the height of clutter was 15 cm in the average. i indifferently layed on the couch for a moment. feet were tired. i called Michael. played some idiotic mobile phone game, and left to get papers from the notary. i did. then photocopied EVERYTHING. all originals, checks, translations... and came home. i did it. it was over. i had all necessary documentation.

mom was surprised. she said i had plenty of time to do it without rush but did it in one day. i said:
- today was a good day. it was so sunny and warm. and i felt so strong and confident and lucky and happy that decided to do it all. it was fun to walk in the streets on such a day. it's one of the last days of warm, sunny autumn that i so much love. the next autumn won't be spent in yerevan. and today i didn't feel disgusted or hatered while walking in the streets. everything felt good. even people were smiling.

so now the only thing remaining is to get the package from Michael, fill in some application forms, and get some more e-mails, logs, photos printed.

47 - relaxing after accomplishment


(that's today's 365 days photo.this is from which perspective Michael sees me on webcam)

today i thought of so many visits i have to make, of farewell parties, saying goodbye, packing, leaving... it may sound strange.. i feel good about it. was i given a chance i'd leave NOW.

i know i will cry. many of my friends and family and relatives will cry and will make me cry too. but it's a good sort of it. i will be crying with a light heart, knowing it's the right thing to do, and that it's right to leave. i have no regrets. it's time for disclosure..

whatever my life was until this time - was good. i would have changed absolutelly nothing... because if i changed anything it might not bring me to this day. maybe i'd never meet Michael as a consequence.

the waiting comes to an end... a new life is starting, absolutelly different... and so much the same in some ways.

meh i better go to sleep :D the next time i start philosophy talk pinch me :D

P.S. my life is like coffee - strong taste, strong aroma... the vanilla in the coffee is Michael. without sweetness coffee would be disgusting!!!